Days after YouTuber Camryn Clifford took to Instagram and revealed that her husband, Landon Clifford, had passed away at 19 years old, the mother of two opened up and shared more details about his tragic death.

“This is definitely going to be the hardest video that I’ve ever had to make,” Camryn said during a 36-minute YouTube video, which was uploaded on August 27. “It’s a very important story to be told and it is my job to tell it, but it’s not an easy story to tell at all.”

For those who missed it, on August 21, Camryn confirmed via social media that Landon had died on August 19, 2020, after spending six days in a coma. A GoFundMe Page dedicated to his legacy revealed that he had suffered from a brain injury before passing. Now, the 19-year-old revealed that her husband had suffered from mental health issues, including anxiety, depression and ADHD. During Camryn’s pregnancy with the couple’s second daughter,  Delilah Rose, she said that Landon “started falling into a depression.” After seeing a psychiatrist to get help, Camryn said her husband fell into a “vicious cycle” with his medication.

“He was so far into it that it was really hard to just stop,” she said. “No matter how many times he tried fixing it on his own, it never worked.”

After Delilah was born in May 2020, she said things were “looking up,” until August 13. She remembered Landon apologizing for “everything” he put her through. She added, “I could just tell he was putting a lot of blame on himself.” After she forgave him and told him she would “always” love him, Landon went to take a bath, which he did every night. After checking on their other daughter, Collette Briar, Camryn said she went to check on Landon and he wasn’t in the bath. After checking their entire house, she found him in the garage after an apparent suicide attempt.

Landon was admitted to the hospital after an EMT found his pulse, according to Camryn, and after days in a coma, he was declared brain dead on August 18. Just like she told fans in her Instagram tribute, Camryn said her husband donated his organs because “even in death, he was caring about people.”

“I know Landon. I know he was not thinking rationally. He’s a very impulsive person. He always has been and he does things without thinking and I think he felt guilty about how everything has gone for the past year and I think he just felt like a burden and like we’d be better off without him, which is so far from the truth and I wish he would have known that,” she concluded. “If he knew everything that would follow after he did what he did, he wouldn’t have. That’s why I am here to tell his story because there are so many people out there who need to hear about what comes after.”

Since November 2017, Landon and Camry have amassed over 1.2 million subscribers on their Cam&Fam YouTube channel where they showcased their daily lives with their two daughters. They were married in June 2019.

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