YouTuber Tana Mongeau has spoken out after Kahlen Barry called her out for using racial slurs in the past.

For those who missed it, Kahlen — who used to co-run a channel with Tana called “Trash” — issued a lengthy note to Twitter earlier this month, where he alleged that the influencer used the “N-word.”

“You made me feel, as a black person, invalidated and I never felt as a friend I could tell you about the things that hurt me without it being spun back onto to me,” he admitted in the now-deleted post.

He also called her out for not using her platform to support the Black Lives Matter movement.

“You have taken days to respond to the current state of events in the world regarding Black Lives Matter. The posts that you have made were simply retweets or reposts of other things people have created. You have a huge platform. Millions of people from every race look up to you and love you,” he continued. “Please use your platform to make a sincere contribution to the Black Lives Matter movement.”

The social media star also posted a 44-minute video, detailing his experiences working with Tana. Now, nearly a week later, the vlogger has responded in a series of tweets.

“First, I’d like to apologize to Kahlen directly for my silence, there are no excuses, I should have talked and listened to you. Instead, I’ve been trying to find the words to address this and apologize in a way that that won’t further hurt anyone, and educate myself on how to handle this properly,” she began. “I am so sorry that came with any silence. But I am taking responsibility for all of my actions in the past. I know I am an adult. There are no excuses for my behavior, and I know that. I have done my BEST to educate myself, and grow as a person from who I was in the past. I want to be the best version of myself who continues to grow. But I know that just educating myself isn’t enough to truly grow, and I need to take accountability for my past actions, and address them in order to truly grow. I am sorry for staying silent.”

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“I will continue to be addressing and apologizing for everything with full transparency. I want to apologize directly to @KahlenBarry for anything I ever did to make him feel that I was being micro-aggressive or racist,” the 21-year-old continued. “That is so far from who I am and will spend a lifetime trying to show you that. I want to apologize once again for all of my past tweets as they are unacceptable AND DISGUSTING and I know how truly far I am from that person now. To think I’ve ever had a sense of humor that relied on shock value like that f**king disgusts me.”

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“I am so sorry to anyone who was angered by my silence — I should’ve instantly said this. It breaks my heart to see people say I’m only being a performative activist — I truly stand by my morals now and will continue using my platform and doing everything i can to fight for what is right and equality,” she added. “But I completely understand how my silence was not the right thing to do if that’s how I want to be perceived. I will be better. Thank you to my fans for holding me accountable and expecting better.”

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