Brace yourselves, you guys, because we are just weeks away from a new Harry Styles-inspired movie. That’s right! The film we’ve all been waiting for is hitting theaters on April 12, 2019, and the main star just spilled all the tea on what we can expect.

The intense new flick, called After, is based off a One Direction fanfiction written by Anna Todd. British actor Hero Fiennes Tiffin, who plays Hardin — the Harry-inspired character in the movie — just sat down with WWD to talk about the upcoming film, and boy, does it sound intense. So intense, in fact, that the 21-year-old revealed he still doesn’t feel ready to watch it!

“I’m waiting for the right time — my laptop’s broken,” he told the outlet. “I have the ability to watch it. I’m going to watch it when the time’s right. I feel like watching yourself is always a little bit weird, but watching yourself in sex scenes is probably going to be a bit more weird. I’m interested to see how I react.”

Um, OK, he’s definitely got a point. That may be a little awkward. As fans know, after the fanfiction got over 1.5 billion readers on Wattpad, Anna’s story was published into a five-book series. And after the massive success of the series, the internet pretty much lost it when Paramount Pictures announced they were going to turn the story into a movie back in 2015.

Now, almost four years later, the film is finally coming out. But trust us, it’ll definitely be worth the wait. Besides Hero, it also stars 13 Reasons Why actress Katherine Langford‘s little sis, Josephine. She plays Tessa, a good girl who meets and falls for a bad boy named Hardin when she moves into her freshman dorm at college — and their relationship is intense, to say the least.

“It’s that never-gets-old love story told in a refreshing, real modern way. I think it’s trying to tell the broad truth that there are people who love each other, and there will be difficulties in their relationship and love is a kind of thing that is going to somehow override all of those difficulties,” the actor continued. “And it may not be pretty, but hopefully in the end it will be. That’s kind of what they’re chasing.”

Wow, we can hardly wait to see what goes down. Just a few more weeks, guys. A few more weeks.

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