From the outside looking in, it may seem like James Charles‘ rise to the top was pretty effortless. However, in a recent interview with Buzzfeed, the 19-year-old revealed that wasn’t the case at all. In fact, when the YouTuber was first starting out in the beauty world, he found himself getting into a lot of petty feuds, which were mainly the result of feeling like he wasn’t growing as quickly as everyone else.

“I got into a lot of drama when I first started in beauty community,” James said. “I wasn’t really growing that fast and was also bitter at some other people who were ahead of me at the time.”

In hindsight, though, the beauty guru revealed that he shouldn’t have gotten caught up in all that, and instead, he should’ve put his energy towards achieving his own personal goals.

“I wish I could tell myself to focus on yourself and to stop worrying about what other people are saying about you, what they’re doing, what videos they’re doing,” he explained. “I wish I would have just focused on myself and minded my own business — I’m really great at that now, queen of staying out of drama — but back then, a little bit rough.”

The rest of the interview wasn’t quite as serious (we mean, he was surrounded by puppies for crying out loud). In addition to discussing his rocky start in the beauty world, James also revealed to fans how “hi sisters” started, and TBH, we seriously can’t stop laughing.

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According to him, the whole thing started two years ago on Halloween, when he was trying to dress up as a deer while also covering his hair, which he described as “ratty.”

“I knew I couldn’t go out in public looking like that,” the internet star said. “So my friend’s dad helped me cut holes in a baseball hat so I could fit my deer antlers through it so I could be a deer and cover my hair at the same time. When he gave it to me, I was just like, ‘Thanks, sister Marco.’ And for some reason, it just stuck and my best friend’s group chat all started calling each other sister.”

Well, there you have it, folks!

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