Opening UpJustin Bieber Recalls Past Struggles With Suicidal Thoughts and Hate in ‘Next Chapter’ Documentary

Justin is in a really good headspace.

Throughout the documentary, Justin said he’s “in the best place” right now.

“I want to be the type of person and leader who can tell people, ‘You don’t have to put on a front. You don’t have to act a certain way. Who you are is enough,'” he explained after revealing that there was a point in his career where he was suicidal.

“I just kind of let the insecurities of everything going on dictate how I started to move,” he recalled. “There was times where I was really, really suicidal. Like, man is this pain ever going to go away? It was so consistent, the pain was so consistent. I was just suffering, right? So, I’m just like, man, I would rather not feel this than feel this.”

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Justin and Hailey have a very strong marriage.

“Hailey is such a driven person, I’m such a driven person and so it allowed us to take a step back and focus on each other. That was actually really a beautiful thing,” he explained. “Hailey really empowers me and enables me to feel like Justin. I love you for you, you are enough, and that enables me to go into my workspace and be confident and feel like I’m enough. I feel like we’re just learning how to navigate the relationship. I mean, we’re now two years in.”

The meaning behind his song ‘Holy.’

“I wanted to make something that was going to be empowering,” Justin shared. “I just have this hope in my relationship with God, I have this hope in my relationship with my wife. ‘The way you hold me feels so holy,’ it’s talking about that significant other.”

The real meaning behind ‘Lonely.’

“I was so surrounded, millions of people in the audience, but I still felt lonely, I still felt misunderstood, I still felt hurt,” Justin said about growing up in the spotlight. “I actually teared up in that video when I was watching Jacob Tremblay, who is an incredible young actor, playing me. I just had no idea what was to come.”

The singer said the hateful comments he received affected him to the point where he hurt the people who cared about him the most.

Justin feels ‘fulfilled.’

“I’m the most fulfilled, I feel the most stable, I feel the most secure, I feel the most confident. I feel so just at peace for the first time in my life,” he said about his current mental state. “I don’t feel like I’m striving. I feel like I know who God’s called on me to be, where I am, where I’m supposed to be. I’m walking in the plans of God. The assurance of that is amazing.”

Justin wants to help people.

“It becomes an actual honor and a privilege to help people. There’s such a fulfillment there. I want to show the good stuff, I want to show the bad stuff,” he said. “Right now, it happens to be a really special, good season. I don’t feel like we ever arrived, I don’t feel like I’m finally there, I just feel like I want this to last. I don’t know what’s going to come next. If I can use this gift to help people, that’s just what I want to do.”

Justin is mentoring up-and-coming artist Eddie Benjamin.

Included in the documentary is a scene with up-and-coming artist Eddie Benjamin, who fans may know as Maddie Ziegler‘s boyfriend. Justin explained that he wanted to help the 18-year-old musician find his place in the industry.

“There’s going to be people who come around who just want to take, take, take, take, take,” Justin told Eddie. “And if you’re looking at the people who are just taking, you don’t want to listen to their opinion. You’ve got to listen to people who are feeding into your life and giving you. I would just encourage you to listen to those people, because you have so much ahead of you, bro. I’m so excited to watch your journey. I’m so excited to watch you blossom into this incredible artist.”